(Cyan-ide - Rachel Faith Cox)
Today's contribution for Exploring Dysautonomia Through the Arts, is from Rachel. I love Rachel's picture and accompanying poem and once again it feels like slipping into familiar clothes the themes are so close to home.
Hi, I'm Rachel, I have Pandysautonomia and live in New Zealand. I am a Mum of two and a wife too. My picture is called Cyan-ide. It’s a play on the colour cyan, blue being our awareness colour for Dysautonomia Awareness Month. Cyanide because sometimes it feels like I have been poisoned slowly. My form of Dysautonomia is progressive, so that relentless decline and fall feeling is often with me. I drew this with pencil, ink pen, felt pen and coloured pencils. Anything I could find easily in the kids’ homework supplies drawer. I find so often that my creativity is drained by the efforts it takes to set up supplies and get it all ready to go. But this project had a deadline which was good motivation to get it done, somehow! I wanted to show how Dysautonomia feels. In those moments when your family have gone to work and school and you don’t have to have your brave face on anymore. I wanted to show how trapped and held we feel when we wake to face another day of it.
I also wanted to write a poem to accompany the picture, but the poem took longer to put together. Finally, today, after three straight days in bed, I got it done. Thanks Michelle for waiting for me to send it to you. I've called the poem Free Fall and it is really an exploration of the desperate relationship I have with sleep. With hope. With the difficult thoughts. I am usually more upbeat in my writing, but it has been a true release to have this opportunity to express myself and my feelings so freely.
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